A personal book project, “My Youth Holds Me Tight”.
The core concept of this book is junction. “Me” and my youth holding
together, the fake “me” and the real “me” holding together, “me” and my
electric lover holding together…Such junction is not only a physical
connection, but also a merge between two identities that fuse into
Formally, this book consists of two parts. The first about the fake “me”
reads from left to right, and the second part about the real “me” reads
from right to left. The two different “me”s are separated yet connected
at the same time.
The first part is a visual, emotional, yet fragmented illustration of
the memories of the fake “me”. The fake “me” is in love with an
imaginary android, and went for a long journey with it, looking for
destroy of its own human body, so they could finally be parts of a
On the other hand, memories of the real “me” are more like a constantly
updating collection of knowledge. A wide range of topics in philosophy
can be seen in its written journals and reflections, excluding romantic
emotions. It seems that this persona portrays less about itself, but all
those knowledge, which is in fact crucial to its growth as an
This project is very much inspired and influenced by Hegel’s discussion
on doubleness of human beings and Geist, namely how we live within
nature, but also represent ourselves to ourselves. We embrace this
doubleness within each individual, and create monuments for so,
struggling from, and celebrating the same thing.